Warning: This post is not short, however I welcome everyone and anyone to read it and post whatever they want.
I had a realization the other day as I was sitting at CiCi’s Pizza chowing down on what had to be my 15th slice. I’m fat, or at least fatter than I was 3 months ago and definitely far from what I want to look like. For the past few months I have just simply been eating everything, good, bad, whatever.
Don’t get me wrong, I’ve still be getting in the proper amounts of protein, been supplementing, and eating on a schedule. However, my food choices have been less than stellar. But hey, I’m an aspiring powerlifter right? I don’t care what I look like…as long as I weigh in right on the day of and set PR’s, or so I kept trying to convince myself.
Truthfully, deep down, I have been unhappy with my recent fat gain.
Sure, I want to be as strong as possible, I don’t want to let my fellow teammates down, but I have to be ok with who looks back at me in the mirror, and right now, I’m not, which is waning on my confidence.
Mcdonalds, Wendys, Pizza, cookies, twinkies and the like have been regular factors of my diet for the past months, with chicken breast, protein powder, steak thrown in the mix.
Don’t get me wrong, I have gained strength, and I have gained muscle under the fat gain, but I’m in a weight class I shouldn’t be, and I’ve also gained some killer love handles. I realized something else, the strongest kid on our team is pretty damn lean.
You don’t have to be fat to be a powerlifter and this is something I should have logically understood from the beginning. The first thing that comes to mind when I think of all this is anger. Angry that my body doesn’t mirror the amount of work I put into weights. It’s my fault, and therefore I’m angry at myself for allowing it to happen and attempting to take what I thought was the shortcut.
On top of all this, I’m only 20 years old, do I really want to spoil my health by eating all this garbage on a day to day basis? I’m predisposed to high blood pressure and high cholesterol, and I want to do everything in my power to prevent these predispositions from becoming reality.
I need to make a drastic change now, and nip all these shitty habits in the butt.
I have decided on the V-Diet and I have already ordered the needed supplements and am waiting on their arrival. This diet is hopefully going to do two things: Drop me to an appropriate weight class for my current strength level, and transform my physique.
20 years old
187lbs (compete at 181lb)
Body Fat % - unknown, I have no calipers and the digital one has to be wrong, anyone care to give a rough estimate is fine, if not ok…mirror will be judge.
Measurements - I will have a cloth tape to measure within the next couple days.
As far as this log goes, I will only be posting how the diet itself is working, how I’m doing mentally while on it etc.
I will not post my training unless you guys ask, as it will be the training I do with the team at school and totally different from the recommended v-diet training program. I will start the diet just soon after I receive my order and will start logging immediately.
Pics coming next.