A little “background” on me - I’ve competed in several competitions - started out in bodybuilding, but it’s really laughable. I lived in Virginia at the time and the federation that I competed in was TINY!! I didn’t have much size on me at all, but was shredded as hell the first several competitions.
I actually won 1st overall in one, 1’st women’s tall in another, and 2nd women’s tall in the third (of the bodybuilding competitions). If you’ve seen any of my photo’s, you’re probably like “really?” b/c I don’t have a bodybuilder’s physique at all! But I guess that was the advantage of competing in such a small federation. I can diet down and shred like no-body’s business, but I have a VERY hard time putting on significant size.
The girls I competed against were all more developed then me, but they really hadn’t “cut” enough for stage, and the I guess the judges felt that my less developed shredded physique was more worthy of the placement then the other competitors more developed, softer physiques.
Any way long story short, I moved to Massachusets away from my trainers, posing coach, coreographer, nutritionist, support group, ect. I got lazy and fat on fast food. About a year later I got fed up w/ it and decided to compete again, but this time in a more well-known federation - I had aspirations of being on the cover of Oxygen magazine, a spokesmodel for a supplement company, the whole 9 yards . .
Anyway, I decided to compete in Figure with the Fitness Atlantic Federation. I trained for stage w/ Cathy Savage and her team, and had my own trainer on the side (John Sullivan “Sully” at Excel Sport & Fitness) who helped me put on more muscle than I’d ever had before. I dieted down, and was honestly in AMAZING shape - ready to take the Fitness Atlantic by storm! Then I was rushed to the emergency room 2 days before the competition w/ acute appendicitis.
All that work, and I missed the opportunity to “get myself out there” in front of potential sponsors, publicists, ect. I was DEVASTATED, and shortly thereafter had to move to TX, once again leaving behind my support group and trainers.
Again, I got fat and lazy on fast food (noticing a pattern here?? lol). A year later, I decided to compete again - this time in Fitness Texas (still part of the Fitness Universe Federation). Trained my ass off, dieted down, but about 4 weeks out from show was offered the career advancement of a lifetime. The problem was that it would require a lot of travel, and insane hours for the first few months - which would prevent me from making my competition date. I had to make the “grown-up” decision, and put my career above my hobby . .
So guess what … . I got lazy and fat AGAIN!!! And that brings me to the here and now. My problem is this - I’m VERY all or nothing. I have never had a problem dieting down for a competition, because I simply tell myself “when this is over, I can have that krispy kreme, and that DQ blizzard”. But that’s really an unhealthy frame of mind. I’d really like to eat clean year-round and get rid of my tendency to swing from one end of the clean eating pendulum to the other over, and over, and over again.
The thing that entices me about the V-Diet is the “re-training” of cravings. When I say I got “fat and lazy”, that’s really only in my eyes of course. I know what I’m capable of, and this definitely isn’t it. No, I’m not “fat”, but I’m carrying around more padding than I’d like to be, even in the off-season. And it’s all due to fast food and sugar. I’m still training hard-core, but really not watching what I eat at all. I know that I have so much potential, and that I’m a “natural” at this (I’m blessed w/ a very athletic and lean figure naturally), but I feel like I’m throwing all of that potential down the drain.
Soooo . . what do I want from the V-Diet?? First and foremost, I want to re-train my cravings, and stop the cycle of clean-to-binge-to-clean-to-binge eating once and for all. Second, I’d like to lean out and jump-start my metabolism again - get rid of the “bumpy crap” on my rear, and re-claim my figure! And yes, I do want to compete again, but I haven’t set a date yet.
I’ve been Oly-lifting for about 6 months now, and I want to lean out a little to see the changes in my physique - I know I’ve increased my stregnth, and my legs are much more muscular, but I’m afraid that my shoulders aren’t capped quite as well as they were when I was training for competitions. So I want to see where I stand, re-evaluate, possibly change up my training a little, and then go from there.
But I can’t do any of this until I shave off the layer of padding and see what’s underneath