I’m starting the V-Diet on Sunday (actually, I might just start tomorrow, since the kit arrived today). But I feel like I ate too much today, so maybe I will fast or nearly fast tomorrow and then start Sunday when I feel ‘cleaner’ if that makes sense…
So, some background… From April of '09 to October of '10 I lost a total of just under 250lbs. I went from 426 on April 10th, 2009 (which was down from a scale-busting 440lbs. the previous summer, in July of '08 before I “got serious”) down to 180lbs. on Oct. 23rd. 2010. It was exhausting, and excruciating.
I would alternate different dietary habits… I cut out all junk food right away (I was a potato chip fiend) and eventually cut out all drinking of alcoholic beverages. I stopped drinking diet sodas as well. For a while I even dropped to a sub-1000cal diet, which fucked my metabolism, I’m sure…
Then I was following the diet outlined in Waterbury’s Body of FIRE and by the time I got down to 178 I was a ball of stress due to a lot of factors in my life work and personal. Sounds like an excuse, I know… but really, it’s not. I own it. I don’t excuse it for a second…
I still wasn’t pleased with how “flabby” i appeared in the mirror, even though the scale was showing me the progress and I was a lot smaller than I had been. I felt like shit all the time. I stumbled across this belly fat cure book by Jorge Cruise and decided to give that a try.
In it he talks about all these suguar-free, sugar-alochol options like ice cream and all this crap I hadn’t eaten in over a year. Combine this with the holidays and me stressing the fuck out over work and personal life challenges and well… i blew it. It was like once I got the taste for the sweet junk again, it was all I wanted. Which makes no sense since I never had a sweet tooth before. But boy, now I do!
No excuses, really. The blame is on me… but here I am back at 220lb, up 40lbs in just under two months. I binged. Hardcore. i went crazy on every sweet, fatty junk thing I could find. Nearly every day. It was a complete collapse of the habits I had formed over the previous year plus. Donuts for breakfast? Check. Sandwiches for lunch? Yum! Ice cream after dinner? Yes, please!
In a lot of ways I don’t even understand what happened, because I NEVER had a sweet tooth before. I was the salty foods guy… fried foods, potato chips, pizza, potato chips, chex party mix at the holidays, chinese food… that was what got me to 440lbs in the first place. So WHY was/am I suddenly craving fucking pumpkin cream cheese muffins and chocolate smothered dates and raisins and anything else I can get my hands on? My doctor suggested that this was a “fight or flight” response to all the stress. A craving of fast, simple carbs.
Anyway… enough background. The real issue I now face is, obviously I want to get back to where I was the RIGHT way, and while I want it as fast as possible, I also don’t want to wind up right back here in another 6 months. I obviously need a lot of work in understanding my relationship with food and how to deal with stress in other ways. Got it.
That’s where the V-Diet comes in. Everything I’ve read about it makes me think this is the way I can help myself regain control and tackle my cravings once and for all.
One thing I’m wondering, though, is are the calories low enough? The diet calls for 1,695 non-workout and 2,025 on workout days. While obviously for the last several weeks I’ve been consuming more than that, will the fact that, previously I’ve gone far lower to shed weight still be an issue with my metabolism? Or can I expect a fair amount of success at 1,695 and 2,025? I guess I still worry about my metabolism in a lot of ways, and just how much damage going super low with my deficit did, combined with me being able to pack on fat at an alarming rate due to my past (& present) as an FFB.